From your words, I can tell that your heart really wants a change in your life. God is helping you through this and don’t ever think for a second that you are alone because you are not. I will certainly be praying for you.
My best advice to you is to continue praying. No matter what, even if you give in again, keep seeking God. When you don’t feel like praying to Christ is when you need Him the most.
Physically, I think that you need some support too. God gives us family and friends. I pray that you would get the help, the encouragement and love that you need at this moment.
God can do anything. And through Him, you can too. Philippians 4:13
Try to focus on God and pray continuously. I don’t understand God’s ways, but He has a purpose for you in this life and He knows that you will full-fill it. When there are tough moments, meditate on God’s words or read the Bible. It will be tough but with God, anything is possible. Have faith that God is going to get you through this.
When the temptation too strong to resist, write a Bible verse on your fingers and repeat it over and over. You can repeat Psalm 27:3 or simply say, “Jesus is helping me, Jesus is healing me.”
I don’t know much, but I’m sure that there is some sort of program too for people who smoke that want to quit. Maybe if you work together with others, you guys can keep each other accountable.
My prayer for you; Dear Lord, this wonderful wonderful child of yours has poured out his or her heart in this message. His words are what his heart means. Please help him through this tough situation that seems like an unmovable rock. He loves You O Lord and knows that You can help them through anything and everything. Please give this dear brother or sister wisdom and faith through it all. And even if he should fail again, help Him to turn back to You always because You will give him peace and comfort and love. You alone God can help him through this, but if it is Your will Lord, please send other brothers and sisters to him to help him overcome this temptation. Lord I pray that You will heal him completely and give him peace. Please let him know always in his heart that You hate the sin, not the person. That You love him or her and that will never change. Amen.
(if you need more prayers or just someone to talk to, we can talk privately if you would like. But prayer is the ultimate solution and Jesus is the final answer.)